my return to 2006

tapping on the glass... watching my heart grow... watching it embarrass me and strip me naked... listening to this song on repeat... one day i will put it away... but i'm stuck copying, saving, sitting and not changing anything or helping anyone or making any decisions... it keeps happening while i run to catch up... it's hissing and i forgot... it's bubbling over and it will burn everything down to a stub... i will sit there while you bring me dinner and i will smile... and i will smile again and then laugh and then love you and believe that i might be dead if you weren't standing there... then i throw up on my pants, out the door and i fill up the world and we're stuck inside... and i've killed everything with my mistakes... and you will make it seem like nothing much